Made In Chelsea star Cheska Hull has revealed her struggle with depression following the suicide of her father and the collapse of a relationship with a long-term boyfriend.

Cheska Hull
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The reality TV personality, who now works as an ambassador for mental health charity Mind, said counselling has helped her cope with her problems.

She told Hello! magazine: “I can see now that my depression was building up for some time, but I buried it and buried it and tried so hard to put on a front because the alternative was to deal with intensely painful things that I had such confused feelings about.”

Talking about the death of her father Robin, who hanged himself in Hong Kong in 2011, she said: “I knew he wasn’t in a positive place, although never how bad it had got.

“But there’s always that nagging regret of, ‘What if I’d got round to returning that last missed call?’.”

Cheska Hull
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She said: “My father’s death is something that will affect me forever, but I’m more at peace with it, and him, and I know now that I wasn’t crazy or stupid for feeling the way I felt. I just should have got help a lot sooner.”

Cheska Hull with her Made In Chelsea friends Joey Essex, Ollie Locke and Sam Faiers
Cheska Hull with her Made In Chelsea friends Joey Essex, Ollie Locke and Sam Faiers (Jon Furniss/Invision/AP)

The star also said she was devastated when her boyfriend of two-and-a-half years, a banker called Mike, ended their relationship.

She said: “I was heartbroken, bereft, a mess.

“I hadn’t seen it coming, although in retrospect, I can see he and I were not on the same page. I’d got to the stage where I’d wanted us to move in together and for things to start moving forwards. I was completely in love with him.

“My thoughts were moving towards marriage, children, which, on reflection, he was always reticent to discuss.”

The full interview is in Hello! magazine, out now.